This little girl had no idea what the future held for her.
On this particular day in her shiny shoes, puffy organza swiss dot dress w/ black velvet waist ribbon,black velvet ribbon tied ponytail..her hopes and dreams had come true.
A canopy bed.(Wish I still had it)And a new bébé...plastic though:)
Our white plastic tree and baubles and tinsel and glitter..our faux fireplace.. An upper duplex in Mtl.
I was messaging with my daughter and I said to her that while Lucas was playing his last football game last Saturday..for the Provincial title..They won.. My grandsons love their sports and work hard at them.
I asked my mom to send me a sign..
I asked for something special so that it would be an in my face sign.
See..I've never had signs..
The fact that they won could have been a sign..but it was a sign for everyone.
But when they won he broke from the cheering crowd he came to hug his mom a big bear hug he's 16 ..and then us.
That could have been a sign also:)♥
But I think that was not a pinpointed sign.
Anyway the more I thought about the more I thought my girls and these 4 darling boys are my signs.
I told Caroline..you probably won't get signs when I am gone..and she said :"Really"?
I said I think what you have are memories..so you right now have 45 yrs of memories with me..so you will remember funny things..words..flashbacks..stupid things I did..or nice things I did..
Things I told you..things I did OK as a mom..not so stellar things;)
Food I made..Christmases....
I figure I had 8-9 yrs.
We don't remember much before the age of 10..
I lost her at 19..so even 8-9 I am being generous..and then it's such a shock ..your memory bank in that period of time (the loss and before) is pretty much a blur.
Tree is going up today and we had ..